This song is about loneliness that can persist even in the most crowded room. It is about emptiness that makes a person wonder what went wrong and how they ended up in this place.

A brief overview of the process: I recorded a demo of this song back in 2019 on GarageBand, but later decided to return to it and re-record it again using the Cubase program. In this song, I focused on the drum in the chorus; it conveys a bit of a serious vibe. At the end, I varied the seriousness of the song with the lyrics "I don't think I can stay here coz my mom told me not to go outside". For this song, I mostly used HALion for synthesizers from Steinberg, also Kontakt from Native Instruments, and Electric Grand 80 Piano from Waves. I also used Groove Agent from Steinberg to create a realistic drum sound.

LYRICS:

Messages from you
I don't need them at all
I don't wanna be with you
I wanna be alone
My health is not good
And you know this too
I'm trying my best to be happy for you
(Happy for you)

All day, all night
Not going anywhere
So boring to sleep
I'm underneath
The siren in my head
And I'm still in bed
So what should I do?
It's too late
It's too late
But what we did was destroyed
I disappear

This is hurting a lot
I can't see anything
Maybe it's my eyes
Or just a dream
You are walking around
You wanna hide from me
Please don't run away
I'm not here
(No, I'm not)
I'm not here
(No, I'm not)

I'm laying and overthinking
What if I can be bad
Make people's lives more complicated
Dark and sad
They say life is beautiful
I'm sure it's so stupid though
There's one thing that I like
City lights
It's so nice in the night
Anyway

This is hurting a lot
I can't see anything
Maybe it's my eyes
Or just a dream
You are walking around
You wanna hide from me
Please don't run away
And don't follow me
And don't follow me

The burning sun
My eyes in tears
Maybe I'm crying
I'm so naive
Don't call 911
It won't make me feel better
Just a sunny day and wonderful weather

I miss you a lot
Please come back home
You know I'm alone
Or just pick up the phone
Don't bring hot tea
And chocolate cake
I don't wanna put on weight

This is hurting a lot
I can't see anything
Maybe it's my eyes
Or just a dream
You are walking around
You wanna hide from me
Please don't run away
I don't think I can stay here
Coz my mom told me not to go outside
(Not to go outside)
My friend doesn't know me
And I don't know myself
So leave me alone
So leave me alone

Credits:

Lyrics: Maya Clars

Music: Maya Clars

Music Producer: Maya Clars

Mixing Engineer: Maya Clars

Mastering Engineer: Maya Clars

Arrangement: Maya Clars

Sound Design: Maya Clars

Vocals Arrangement: Maya Clars

Recording Engineer: Maya Clars

You can find additional information on my website: mayaclars.com